disclaimer: I do not come from either schools. I watch the games because I loooooooove basketball. tenk yu.

Originally, I planned to watch the ADMU-DLSU game today with my dad, but due to health issues, di pwede sumama ang tatay ko. So I went to the game, with Beau, Karen, Mica and Eric. (nga pala thanks beda for the tickets).

Here are my realizations today:

1. I was right with my theory! Hands down, La Salle gets an easier time if JV Casio plays good. Those threes had perfect timing. I now fully understand his value to the Archers. Clutch Player *clap clap clap* Translation? Masakit sa puso ang bawat 3 points na binitiwan niya.
2. Compared to the 2 previous games, Ateneo's game was a little off today. (And I am not making an excuse for the eagles, just to clear things out, the archers won the game fair and square). Turnovers could have been lessened, there were too many passes. Pero eto, eto ang frustration ko. REBOUNDS! Where are the big men?! My goodness, it's cute (in my definition of cute) to see Jai Reyes shoot the ball and then scramble for the ball right after to catch it, PERO KAMOOOOOOOOOOOOOON! ANO  BAAAAAAAAAH! Siya lang ba ang player ng ateneo? hindi. hindi.
3. Eto ever since I watched UAAP Games, eto ang gustong gusto ko sa La Salle. THE FULL COURT PRESS. Ibang klase ang press nila. * clap clap clap*
4. Si Maierhoffer (sp?), everytime I see him play, I remember how the kanto boys play. Balya kung balya eh. Haha. and! oh yeah, best actor for you!
5. Kung may award ang asaran moment of the game. it would've gone to ateneo. It was so fun to hear the: WRONG SPELLING! WRONG SPELLING! WRONG SPELLING! cheer over and over again. referring to this HUUUUUUUUUGE mistake.
6. ETO. ETO ANG PINAKAMALAKING OBSERVATION KO NGAYON. NGAYON LANG AKO NANOOD NG LIVE THIS SEASON NG ADMU-DLSU GAME. AT! NATALO ANG ADMU. I THEREFORE CONCLUDE.... AKO! AKO ANG MALAS NG ATENEO.

*BOW*

in a span of two months, i have heard the worst criticisms ever made that,  I think, would suffice my entire life. In

this same span of time, I have learned how to fake a smile enough to be a convincing one. In a span of two

months, I have cried, laughed and screamed my head off out of stress. In a span of two months I have grown

more that I have ever; more than I have grown during the three years of my college life. In a span of two months I

have learned that hard work does pay off, and that no matter what happens and no matter what circumstances

bring you, friends, no matter how young your relationship is with them, stick by you through and through.

In a span of two months, I have made friends, that I honestly believe, I can keep forever. Because we shared the

same hardships strangers can share in a lifetime,  in a span of two months. I can honestly say that I have formed

lifetime connections after this.

In a span of two months I have learned that all you get from listening to crap is shit, and that no matter what

people tell you, it is up to you to decide if you believe them or not. I also realized that you can't take everything

seriously, because if you did you'd just go crazy. There would always come a time that you just need to stop and

smell the flowers (uy! idiomatic expression, hahahaha).  I have learned to stand-up for what I believe in and for

what is right, WITHOUT being disrespectful. I have learned that no matter how your boss sucks that quitting is

not an option. I have to be firm with my decisions, that I will finish whatever I have gotten myself into. During the

last 2 months, I have been pushed to my limit. I have been tempted to quit so many times, but I stuck with my

decision, because I don't want to feel like a quitter, like a wimp who can't take the heat.  With those reasons, I'd

like to proclaim that in the past two months I have matured more that I ever did during the twenty-one years of

my existence.

I have also come to realize that no matter how nice you are you will always meet an asshole along the way.

Now I see the world differently. I have solid proof that THERE IS REALLY NO SUCH THING AS A FREE

LUNCH. That everything you want must be attained through perseverance and hardwork (although this fact will

always be denied by the chosen few, that still believe that MONEY can still buy you anything at a right price)

After all these realizations, I still have some questions left unanswered. Like for example, "why don't people take

me seriously?" Yes, I admit, that whenever I joke around, that I still look like a freaking OVERSIZED

grade-schooler  (I wouldn't be Arlene if I weren't like that.) BUT I do know when to draw the line between  

joking and working. I just can understand why some people still think that having fun is a sign of immaturity.

I don't want to list all my rantings here in one entry. Maybe, if I find the energy I may find time to rant more on MY blog. haha.

Life is not that bad when you think about it. Yes, like me, most people are broke. Some of us didn't get to finish college (well at least I am taking a break, and finding another course that would suit me better. AND TO THE PEOPLE WHO STILL DON'T KNOW, WHO STILL HAVEN'T HEARD. YES I STOPPED GOING TO SCHOOL AND CURRENTLY WORKING AS A FESTIVAL SECRETARY AT THE 9TH CINEMANILA INTERNATIONAL FILM FESTIVAL. Kung itatanong niyo kung anong ginagawa ko, wag na, di ko rin alam).

Everyday, I think about the fact that the ditch I am stuck in right now, may be the place I end up for the rest of my life. Everyday, I get to think about the fact the most of the people in the office, have graduated college and will have other things to do and jobs to apply to once the festival is over. Eh ako? After this, I guess I'll have to apply as a barista at starbucks, kasi ma-pride ako, ayokong mag call center. A.Y.O.K.O.

PWEDE BANG JULY NALANG FOREVER?

i have 3 reasons why I don't want July to end.

1. Lapit na birthday ko. I don't want to be a year older. at wala akong choice but to be 21 years old sa august. di ko alam kung bakit, pero naririndi ako tuwing naiisip ko na malapit na akong mag 21.
2. Ayoko pang mag start ang Cinemanila, feeling ko hindi kakayanin ang stress.
3. Pag august na, pag natapos na ang Cinemanila? Saan ako pupulutin? Aber?

See? I have reasons why I don't want July to end. I don't want to relive my summer of doubts and fears. I don't want to think about questions as to where my life is heading. And lastly, I don't want to lose my sanity. haha. my friends and family keep me sane too. or at least, they keep up with my craziness so in some way i feel that I am sane.

but then again, WHEN I REALLY THINK ABOUT IT, I'd rather have these thoughts rather than, thinking about how some loser person destroyed my life. or how someone who i had a relationship with, damaged myself. okey na ko sa pinagdadaanan ko.

HAPPY NA AKO SA PROBLEMA KO! hahahaha. funny.

isipin ko nalang matatapos din ang problema ko. Iisipin ko balang araw maiisip ko ang solusyon sa problema ko. at siyempre iisipin ko sa dapat araw-araw nagpapasalamat ako dun sa taong MAS nakakaalam na may mga kaibigan ako pamilya ako. so if you're a my friend or family, and you're reading this, here's a virtual hug for you. a thank you for the support, for the love, and for the patience. thanks. super.

i was surfing through the local channels a few minutes ago,  and I stumbled upon a news flash courtesy of QTV 11 ( a company of GMA Network), and it showed footage of Sen. Alfredo Lim barging in Ali Atienza's headquarters because he recieved an intelligence report saying that there would be ELECTION RETURN switch at the headquarters.

The footage showed him walking around the headquarters, checking every nook and cranny for fake ER's. He picked up all the boxes on the floor, opened some drawers, opened envelopes and asked every person he met along the way where they were hiding the fake ER's.

He never found the said ER's, although the brown envelopes he found and opened contained cash. LOTS OF CASH.

Ooooooooh, election drama or as I like to call it, election schmelection.  

* forgive the punctuations and possibly, the spelling. * 

* if this is applicable, go ahead, assume, think that i am talking to you, I DON'T CARE... REALLY I DON'T* 

now that it's over. i'd like to thank you. for the fun, the craziness, the laughs, the deep and nonsensical conversations, the way you read my mind and even the tears i shed that you never knew about. I Learned a lot you, know. I learned how to keep things to myself, and let others know I am fine. I learned how to say only things people should know about and keep the majority to myself.

I learned that crying alone, all by yourself is not such a bad thing, but there are times when you just need someone to be there to comfort you.

fuck your insensitivity, i said so many times. but after thinking about everything last night, I felt, YOU KNEW, or at least you had an inkling. I guess my hiding wasn't that good enough.

so here i go,  throwing every sensible thing that is stopping me from writing this entry out the window. thanks, for everything. thanks for making me laugh. thanks for everything.